Thursday, April 15, 2010

Pure Embarrassment!

Day four: My Stats were                                                                                   Cals  1443                                                                                                                  Fat   43 g                                                                                                               Sodium 2801 mg                                                                                                  Carbs166g                                                                                                                   Sugars 79 g                                                                                                          Fiber 23g                                                                                                                    Protein 94 g

I only did a half hour of weightlifting focusing more on my legs today.  Per livestrong.com I burned 137 calories .  I started to do a high intensity interval cardio on the treadmill at the gym.  I was going pretty fast for me and my pants started to fall down.  I was barely in a minute or two.  So here I was trying to run fast, not fall and majorly hurt myself, and keep my pants up.  I then thought my pants aren’t falling down but my underwear I can live with that.  I thought the top band was tighter then the hips area of the pants.  So I kept telling myself (mind you these was all seconds) to ignore the sensation as it has to be my underwear only.  But then the other part of my brain was saying “Don’t be a fool!!  Your pants are falling”  Well that part was so right.  My pants feel down and I was starting to expose my ugly low hanging belly and my dimply rear for the cameras at the very least but who knows who else I was too scared to look back and see who might have been laughing at me!  I went until five minutes and just couldn’t handle the thought anymore.  I just needed to call it a day.  I don’t think I am mortified but I am embarrassed enough that I just couldn’t focus.  bluck and at the same time lmfao!

So three days down where I feel proud and on track.  I even wanted Doritos last night and I said no to myself and stuck to it.  I still want some now.  I was my favorite late night snack.  I usually crave salt at night instead of sweet which is my usual any other time crave.  It makes me wonder the psychological side of that.  Hmmmm… I might have to research that. 

Tomorrow is my free day.  I already have a few things planned for fun.  On the first two days I kept dreaming and fantasizing about what all I was going to eat on my free day.  But today… maybe realizing it was so close and I didn’t have to wait long… it was easier and I keep telling myself.  “Really do I need all that crammed into one day!”  Who has the time and really if I am not wanting or craving why go out of my way to make myself eat/drink it.  I do know for breakfast I am having a mcd’s sausage mcmuffin and a carmal frappe.  At first I daydreamed of my lunch but I am going to take a fairly light lunch.  Those awesome doritos I ahve been wanting at night with some salsa and a light pretzel pread sandwich.  yummmm!  I can’t wait.  :D

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