28 day challenge

I know yesterday's post I was down about reading so many blogs of successful healthy eating folks. But today I have a praise and I hope it serves as a reminder to why I do love those blogs so much. One that is my favorite is http://amerrylife.com/ She is realistic and struggling and not some perfect model shape. She has bad days and good and she shares them all. I love that freshness and honesty. She was given a program called rebel fitness to critique (lucky girl got it for free I am jealous lol) you can go to her website right now for the review. She was fair with pros and cons. It was enough to get me curious. The blog for rebel fitness is here http://www.nerdfitness.com/blog/ (man I miss live writer :( ho hum) and I haven't had a chance to look at it a ton... I did join the community which is free because the blog post encourged me to join a 28 day challenge. This is perfect I need a challenge for sure. What was super neat about it is he asks for two to be health challenges and one to be lifestyle. So mine are...

1) to drink 8 glasses of water a day
2) excercise 5 out of 7 days a week
3) purge my house of un-needed items

So far I have already started the third one strong as I have some books to take to the local re-sell shop!

Now to a quick update on yesterday and how I did.... for my weekly goal of excercise -- epic fail as I did not make it. Not to use an excuse but honestly I tried all afternoon to get the test to load I mentioned. I finally had to do it when I got home last night after midnight. Thankfully the online schools website is two hours behind me! Now I am just worried a D is not passing (Yeah not proud but considering it was math and I had computer issues I am ok with it as long as the school does find it passing. I think they do but I am waiting for confirmation) My GPA is strong so I will still graduate with an A average. Yea me! :D I digress. I did not make it but I will today after dinner. I promised myself. The fluid front was a solid B as I did not have any sugary drinks but didn't get all fluids as actual water. Only half. And the weighing so far is an A as I have done it three days in a row and it is working as a reminder of what I need to do for sure! I was terrified to look at the scale today I had myself almost talked out of it but decided I can't keep being an ostrich. SO I did it and it went a smidgen down and I wasn't naked this am :D SO I am happy I did it. Today I am trying some intuitive eating but so far once I hit 10:30 i have been hungry the whole time. I need to get my stomach/brain re-conditioned to really knowing my hunger triggers. That might take research and for sure time. I might make that a next week goal. :D

Q. What would your 28 day challenges be?

I am doing this

So I weighed myself this am because I am committed to my goals (I was going to say trying to be commited but I am also trying to remove the word try out of my vocubulary... you either do or don't right?) It was not pretty as it went up. I am hoping my tom starts pronto so I can see a downward movement. But my goals are still doable so I am good. :D

I plan on going to the gym after my test for my final bachlor's class (and one less stress as long as I pass) and a yummy labor day fest :D I work tonight which is a sore spot as I want to snack by the end of the night and I work until midnight so there is about two hours at the end I don't do much as the youth (I am a therapist rehabbing youth who are in state custody due to drugs or sexual offenses, truancy etc) go to bed usually by ten.

So the question of the day is if anyone has suggestions on how to avoid late night cravings!

UGH ...

I don't even want to tell you what the scale read. First I was never going to let myself see 200 lbs again and now i have somehow allowed it to say 209.6! I have to stop. I can't keep going up. My lose clothes are getting tight and I want to be proud of myself. But it is so damn hard to get my mind straight. I switched to zoloft and I felt it was working but then I hit the PMS wall and found myself mindless not thinking eating!

I do feel I am an OCD eater. But I also wonder if I am trying to find some excuse for me to be food obsessed. Two days ago I was stuck on this thought that I said no to some trail mix a co-worker offered and I was freaking out why didn't I eat it! WHAT THE HELL!! How bizarre is that but I do that often. I have this feeling if I don't eat it I will never get to eat it and it scares me or some emotion close to that. Maybe more like makes me paranoid. Weird Weird Weird!

And I am way stressed about work, school, money, family. You name it right now I have it. I scour blogs trying to find some solution but all I see is people succeeding and me not. People without children and a husband or BF who doesn't mind eating healthier. It just depresses me more.

So this morning I am stopping the cycle. I am keeping the number in my mind and setting goals. Maybe clear goals will help me. So this week I will
1. Weight myself every day. I know people say not too but for me it forces me to stay on task and not forget my desires to be healthier.
2. Drink 10 oz of water/fluids a day. This will include no soda or sugary drinks.
3. Go to the gym 5 days this week.

I want to have more goals but I don't want to over do it. Setting these goals makes me feel confident that I can be successful. :D I feel so elated I decided to blog today :D

Q. Do any of you feel better when you blog and get these worries off your chest?